Notes on a Scandal: SINGLE and Living Vicariously

February 12, 2007

Spinsters are increasingly prominent in recent movies.  Dame Judi Dench’s stellar performance as Barbara, in Notes on a Scandal, spotlights the loneliness, eccentricities, and desperation of many aging long-term solos.  Barbara is occupied during the day with her teaching job.  However, on evenings, weekends, and holidays, her alienation and contemplations get the better of her.  Unfortunately, a preoccupation with others’ lives, and desire to become part of them, causes her to wish to make herself indispensable, however possible (voyeuristic or otherwise).  This backfires on everyone.

Barabara’s is an extreme case—great movie material. But, sadly, there are many real life "Barbara-seem-alikes." Here’s a look at Trish’s story—a younger, more modern spinsters’s "night-walking" activities:

Even on weekends, it can take Trish till the very end of the day to get out of the house.  She’s an expert at finding unfinished or new tasks that prevent her from taking a break.  In fact, when she’s not pet-sitting Bella, her boss’s dog, she hardly surfaces at all.  But, when Bella stays with her, there’s no choice.  No one else can walk Bella.  

Bella keeps Trish on track, forcing her out of the house somehow, even if only after dark.  And once she’s out, Trish knows that the outing is as good for her as it is for Bella.  As soon as Bella engages herself in the moment, Trish starts to feel calmer and tries to follow her lead:  wander where she wanders, look at what she looks at, focus on their walk.

Why Trish has really come to wait till after dark to walk is hard for her to admit to—her not-so-unconscious need to feel less vulnerable and conspicuous.  The daytime seems to highlight problems that are very real for Trish, though others may find them trivial.  First, she’s tired of walking alone and being seen to be so.  Second, she’s tired of putting makeup on just to go out of the house—lest neighbors have an unfavorable impression of her or she blows a chance encounter with somebody new because her looks don’t measure up.  At night (and in the dark), these problems are minimized.

Some people love being out at night under the stars in the crisp evening air with few others around.  Trish doesn’t have the same motivations.  Favoring privacy over discomfort, she wants to avoid direct eye contact and that feeling of being judged that she thinks daylight so easily prompts.  In the dark of the night, most other people walking seem to be engaged in the same activity as she is —taking care of their dogs’ needs.  They are usually walking alone too.  

A walk at night in summertime, when it’s not cold, windy, or wet, is actually quite enjoyable and ensures a better night’s sleep.  A walk at night in wintertime is something Trish would often prefer to avoid, so she keeps it short.  When she goes out, of course, is more a matter of self-confidence than weather— how well she’s coping with being by herself.  Sometimes, she’d rather succumb to inclement weather and the darkness of night, than the warmer, drier conditions a sunny day offers.  

Also, at night, though Trish may be walking alone, there’s usually more for her to see, particularly as no one on her street seems to believe in window coverings.  She catches up on neighbors’ lives and creates stories about them.  There are those who are TV or computer addicts, and those who seem to have friends over  a couple of times a week.  There are those whose houses are usually in total darkness, who could be hiding in the back somewhere, doing who knows what.  

Once in a while a homeowner comes into full view, in a well-lit front window.  There’s a new family member in his arms.  A pink rosette on the door, an empty Pampers box in the driveway, and a "baby on board" sticker on the car’s back window have already given a hint to inquisitive passers-by with less eventful lives.  Trish might not know any of her neighbors personally, but she does stay informed, somehow or other, even if she’s not really that interested.  

You’d think Tish would have better things to do with her time than observe their homes while walking Bella.  Because Trish doesn’t have the distraction of a human co-walker, she can’t help being drawn to observe others’ domestic activities.  As she returns to her pretty, but empty, bungalow, she doesn’t deny envying her neighbors’ more relationship-oriented lives.  However, she realizes appearances might be deceptive.  Also, given everything Trish assumes about her neighbors, she can’t help wonder what they might suppose about her—if anything.  

Though Trish may walk at night for her own reasons, there’s an unexpected benefit.  Glimpsing at others’ activities and connectedness, between their window frames or in their driveways, is encouraging.  In a funny kind of way, she’s witnessing that relationships can and do evolve.  Regardless, that doesn’t turn off her obsessional/invasive thinking: "Why not me?"

p.s.  February 13, approaching Valentine’s Day (February 14), Cosmopolitan’s Editor in Chief, Kate White, appeared on CBS’s Early show to talk about Couple Envy, and how to deal with it, as featured in her magazine’s latest issue.

 

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